Shadow

Tell me what I really am

Am I that, that no one can see?

Am I some bizarre little ghost

Am I invisible?

Seen by only you and me?

Is it because I am hiding?

Why am I so afraid?

Of the feeling surging up

Inside of me, the ones

Full of friendship and yet, also hate?

Is it because I so lonely?

Is it because I so scared?

Why is it that I so anxious

To be someone

Else friend?

Why do I feel like I hate you?

Does everyone feel this way?

I feel like I so revolting

To hate a friend?

What more can I say?

Is it jealousy I feeling?

Am I so very bad?

No wonder everyone hates me

If I harm the friends

Ie had.

I love my friends, I really do

But this loneliness does hurt

I seem to be a

Non-existent with

An aura matched with dirt

Why does everyone forget me?

Or remember me only for my friend sake?

I want to be included

As an equal,

Of their race.

Have I really got such a low value?

Have I really got no worth?

Can I not be liked for me

For I, for this person I call

Myself?

I need some help, I know it

I try and scream aloud

But nothing seems to

Come outside

Maybe it because I so proud.

I feel like a little shadow

That no one notices

On the wall

I wonder if someone will play with me

I want a friend hat all.

Dedicated to the lonely people out there: you will find someone, and someone will care. It just takes time, and confidence in yourself to do it.

Have you ever felt like nobody seems to understandw hat you're feeling? It's liek you've sent so many hints, so many messages, a bloody RADAR could sense them, but nobody's responding? Like you could do morse code with a FOGHORN and nobody would answer or even ask what the hell were you trying to do?

That's kinda what I'm feeling now....

so yeah...

o and here's another thing.

It's rather depressing, so the weak-hearted shoudl immediately go. Like, now.

but then again, they should have gone a long time ago. This site will have pretty graphic stuff after a while.

O yeah, and homophobes shoudl go hang yourselves. Sheesh.

And for idiots who don't know the difference between literal and imagery, look up the dictionary or get yourself a tutor. I guarentee you'll need one for your English exam.

Well, the subject in this log is going to be war.

It's going to be about how the world will never have peace. Well, anyway, that's my belief.

You see, wars aren't caused by catastrophes, or defending what's right. To me, wars are caused by people with selfish reasons. It is caused by a single person, intelligent, I'm not denying that, who is influenced by his own selfishness. Or a selfishness that does not necessarily belong solely to him, but to a country, or city that he believes the victory will be for.

That single person, will be in a time where the events are in an uproar, where the people are unhappy, willing for change, willing for anything, jsut to make their lives more normal.

The single person will promise them this normality. The people, so eager to change, will agree.

Hence, an attack.

There will always be times of desperation int he world. and there are always intelligent people in said world.

and people are always selfish in some manner.

Yuo cannot say you aren't selfish. There is somethnig you have done that can be said as selfish. Or something you thought, even.

I have a guy that I like, possible love, who has a wonderful opportunity in another school. It's much better than where we live in. I've loved him for 2 years now, and I've never loved anyone so much before. I haven't even told him yet, but although it's the best for him, studying somewhere where there is a better education, a better chance to get somewhere...I don't want him to go.

I'd pay anything not to let him go.

That's selfishness. Because I'm hampering someone just because I love them. And that isn't fair.

The world is trapped in a cycle. It is the cycle of human nature. The cycle of selfish deeds and thoughts.

There will always be war.

Okay, you know what? I hate people who are just so prejudiced without reason. What's the point? For me, I jsut don't want to hurt people. That siunds ironic, since nobody can help it; everybody hurts someone no matter what.

But I hate it when people do it deliberately. I'm sorry, but to me, that makes no sense at all.

Everyone can feel. Isn't it enough that someone gets hurt, physically and mentally? I mean, life's already hard enough as it is. Why do some obnoxious, self-confident, arrogant, idiotic, stuck-up idiots think that they ahve the right to hurt people of their own kind?

To me that's dumb.

I don't love everyone on this earth, and I can promise you that I will never love everybody here. Or maybe I do, but I sure don't like a huge chunk of them. But ti doesn't mean I'll go out of my way to hurt people.

And then there's the fact that once you hurt someone, they too, will probably hrut someone, whether just yelling at their friends because of a bad day, or jsut downright hitting someone because you did it to them.

Wouldn't it be better, if everytime you said something or did something that hurt, you compromised instead? Or at least not hit back...

I may be what peopel call submissive, but hey. I'd rather uphold my soul and get trampled on, then stand up and see dozens of people get hurt everyday of my life.

You may call me dumb, you may call me stupid. That's my way of life, though.